I had a very interesting experience this week. I was extremely emotional. I had racing thoughts and crying outbursts. This experience was brought on by a series of events that tapped into my fears.
I remembered Pema Chodron’s suggestion. Sit with it. Sit with the feelings that are troubling you without picking up food, a drink, or any other distraction.
I did sit with the feelings and it hurt really bad. I wanted to run away, disappear, die, dive into a pie and surf the web, cry and throw up.
But I didn’t. The troubling feelings lasted about three days.
The fear I was feeling was from a past trauma. Each event reminiscent of the trauma flashed before my mind and it all made sense. All the times I ran away from feeling the fear, all the times I distracted my self, all the times I made excuses, basically to protect myself.
The fear left because I faced it. My feelings are still raw but the intensity of the fear on a scale of one to ten is a one.
Next time you are emotionally out of control, depressed, sad or troubled. Just sit with it. Don’t run away. Feel everything.
You will expand your understanding of how you operate. From understanding and knowledge about yourself changes your entire life for the better. That’s a guarantee.
I love storms. Rain storms, Snow storms. Wind Storms, Solar Storms. Lava Storms. Emotional Storms.
The movement of each storm is necessary for progress.
The rain cools the ground and brings nourishment for the earth.
Snow storms slow all movement and brings quite rest.
Wind storms cleanse the atmosphere.
Solar storms explode on the Sun and create magnetic phenomena on the earths polar caps.
Lava storms burn away the old earth and brings in the new earth.
Emotional storms tear us down to be able to rebuild ourselves in a new and better way.
Stormy weather ahead. Welcome it.
. act in ways that invite others to reject, shame, or express anger toward them
. judge harshly what others thin, say or do
. avoid emotional, physical, or sexual intimacy as a way to maintain distance
. allow addictions to people, places and things to distract them from achieving intimacy in relationship
. use indirect or evasive communication to avoid conflict or confrontation
. diminish their capacity to have healthy relationship by declining to use the tool of recovery
. suppress their feelings or needs to avoid feeling vulnerable
. pull people toward them, but when others get close, push them away
. refuse to give up their self-will to avoid surrendering to a power greater thatn themselves
. believe displays to emotion are a sign of weakness
. withhold expressions of appreciation
Here’s a poem by my wonderful nephew Chris. Hope you enjoy his emotional and intuitive message.
“Our two Hearts will NeVer Grow AparT
Tho Circumstances can Drive us To different sides of the world, Our Hearts Forever intertwined in the Battle Of the EverLasting Heart of Pure Darkness..Both Seeking for the True Light Hidden Deep within the Shadows. And while we will Always Be Connected..We Shall Never get lost in the darkness…For even wen we cannot see our way…We Will Always See The Path To Each Other Hearts..And the CallinG of Each Others Souls.”
The most painful endings are
the ones that are never said
and never explained.