Writing about writing, I write to get clarity in what I am struggling with. Lately for some reason it has been really difficult to write about anything.
I am not sure why, I have a hunch that this resistance is from some internal, unconscious, conflict. One part of me wants to write her heart out and the other parts makes her forget because it may bring too much attention to us. She is afraid of people, she wants to stay invisible, it’s safer this way.
I want this scared part of me to know that we will be OK, I will never let anyone hurt or humiliate her again. We are safe now and she can rest and not be on guard so much.
I hope she hears me and can trust me.
Some secrets are good, like not revealing what a birthday gift is or a Christmas gift or some other information that is not harmful in some way.
Some secrets are confidential, embarrassing, shameful.
Some secrets should not be held in your mind if it is making you uncomfortable or feel upset.
Should you reveal all questionable secrets? Not to everyone, but if you are holding secrets that are becoming explosive and tearing you apart emotionally, it is very important to reveal these secrets to someone trusted like a therapist or write them in a journal.
By revealing secrets that are harmful it acts like a steam release, you will feel better and get some emotional distance in order to calm down.
Keeping secrets can make lots of trauma and that is deadly to one’s mental health.
If you must keep secrets at least release them in a safe way.
Your mental health is at stake and you are entitled to a peaceful life not matter what it takes.
Self-conscious is when you feel extreme awareness of your appearance or actions. It is the knowledge of your own existence. Could feel uncomfortable at times. Self-consciousness is much more about what is external.
Self-awareness is when you can see yourself clearly with some objectivity with reflection and introspection. Self-awareness is much about what is going in internally.
If we can find a small wedge of detachment in your thinking, we can get a sense of either self-consciousness or self-awareness.
Developing a healthy sense of self requires that we know about both subjects, the value is the better you know yourself the better you know others which makes for healthier relationships.
Self-awareness is quite important because it allows us to deeply know ourselves better, what makes us tick, what makes us angry, happy, bored or interested. We can look honestly at our own actions with clarity and choose a wiser path.
Learning to have a healthy sense of self is a lifelong journey, there is no one way to learn, everyone is unique. It is so important to care enough about ourselves to take the time to know ourselves intimately.
You will gain confidence, insight, direction and goodness and no one can ever take that from you.