Here are a few questions for you to think about. Questions help you grow and at the very least examine why you make certain choices.
What if I had the opportunity to begin _______ again?
What if I started ending what I did not need anymore?
What if I told the truth to myself and others for a day?
What fear hold me back?
What choices can I change to bring more peace in my life?
Why am I resisting changing what I know has to be change?
Am I making decisions based on outdated beliefs?
Asking questions can be enlightening and uncomfortable but worth the effort. Take your time and write your answers down.
You may be surprised by your perspective.