Writing about writing, I write to get clarity in what I am struggling with. Lately for some reason it has been really difficult to write about anything.
I am not sure why, I have a hunch that this resistance is from some internal, unconscious, conflict. One part of me wants to write her heart out and the other parts makes her forget because it may bring too much attention to us. She is afraid of people, she wants to stay invisible, it’s safer this way.
I want this scared part of me to know that we will be OK, I will never let anyone hurt or humiliate her again. We are safe now and she can rest and not be on guard so much.
I hope she hears me and can trust me.
Resistance is an unwillingness to deal in any way with uncomfortable psychological stuff.
Sometimes we are aware of our resistance but many times the resistance is totally unconscious.
Perhaps we know there is something off in the way we feel but can’t figure out what it is.
There are ways of finding and uncovering what is hidden in the subconscious.
- find a therapist you feel comfortable with.
- research mental health.
- write, write, write, you will feel resistance but write anyway.
- look at cat videos, no really do activities that make you happy.
- do more of what makes you proud of yourself.
It’s time to recover your true self, and this is a lifelong journey, there are no quick fixes in self care. You will always need to take care of yourself, time will pass so you might as well start now.
You are worth it.