Resistance comes in many forms, such as avoidance, addiction, distraction, forgetting, repression, transference, compulsion etc.
We use these forms of resistance because of anxiety.
Behind the anxiety is a fear.
It’s a simple formula to remember, find the fear and the anxiety and resistance goes away, but so very hard to apply.
The answer to uncovering what you are resisting is in finding a safe way of expressing what you are thinking, For example, writing, a therapy that resonates with you, a support group are all safe to start with.
The idea is to find those small moments of clarity, moments of joy will return, and you will be ever so closer to the grounded adult self you need to be.